Many people — indeed, most people, are not really motivated by money. They are usually motivated by an idealistic struggle that they really believe in — well that, or jealousy of someone who leads such a struggle.
It was this jealousy, or shall we call it “blog envy” that motivated me to finally post a new blog entry, the first one in… err… almost exactly a year. Fitting that that last year’s entry should have been about new year’s resolutions. In the interest of full disclosure, a pinch of exhibitionism, and a walloping of masochistic exploration, let me comment on my new year’s resolutions in retrospect — meaning, in business speak, my personal KPI fulfillment in the previous year:
1. Re-start blogging
I may have tried to mislead you to hide the entire scope of my embarrassing failure on this one, but I’m too lazy to backdate posts. The only lame excuse I have is I didn’t have time. The whole year. I procrastinated. To 2012. And now I’m starting again. Hope that convinced you….
Score: 0 / 10
2. Learn Sailing
Okay, so this we started, but didn’t quite get to the license. Looking at the amount of money we sank *ahem* sailed off at the Zürichsee, I would say this one was a full hyperactive success. We look to continue next year, perhaps with a different teacher, lake, and price plan.
Score: 7 / 10
3. play (more) violin
Do other instruments count? Why did I put “violin”? That’s so… limiting. The point is I started playing piano, and… no really…
Let me compose myself. So there was violin (one time) guitar (a few times) and piano (more times). Okay, I admit I more or less flunked this one. The resolution for next year will be “play (some) piano”
Score: 3 / 10
4. re-discover the art of writing (to illustrate the depth of my destitution, it suffices to say that it took me 2 minutes to properly formulate this point)
I re-discover this, every time I write a corporate e-mail. Okay, I see that wasn’t too convincing. I did continue my journal, but did not make the world a better place with any more of my short stories.
Score: 4 / 10
5. attend more political events (like book clubs).
I did attend a book club, even if it was only in a representative role as MB’s boyfriend, does that count? I can report that book clubs are no longer really political events (apart from the Nixon biography we got to take home as a very large and hitherto unopened addition to our bookshelf).
Oh, and plus, I tried to start a book club, but nobody came.
Does visiting a shooting club count as a political event?
Score: 2 / 10
6. focus, instead of just on input-related activities (reading the Economist, going to museums), also on output-related activities (writing, painting)
We did this, especially at the beginning of the year (painting), before we shamelessly reverted to our consumerist selves. However, then we lapsed a few times again.
Score: 5 / 10, not there yet.
7. refocus on core values (like living for knowledge, insight, conversation)
WTF? Man, those old core values seem so distant now! I live for the 25th of the month, which is when my bank account gets a bit fatter. No, seriously, to my former self: “you silly, little, naive young man!!”
Score: no longer applicable. I no longer seek conversation with mortals!
Interlude: damn, why isn’t there anything here about working out??? I did work out in 2011, if my memory is correct, mostly in the beginning of the year. Oh, and I went to the gym yesterday. At 7 in
the morning. Boomyeah!
8. develop a certain positive attitude to work
Amm, not sure if I want to comment on this, lest someone from work find this blog…
Score: 0 / 10
9. do something crazy
Luckily I said “something”, not “things”. Because if I would have said “some crazy things” my abject failure would have been more apparent, considering I did not do anything really crazy the entire year. I asked MB if she knew of anything, anything at all. The best we could come up with: letting her drive my car.
Score: 3 / 10
10. learn to cook
Call Dani. Ask him about the turkish dinner. Call Gyuri. Ask him about the paprikascsirke. Talk to MB. Ask her about my meals.
Score: 8 / 10
11. continue to attempt speed reading
I scored a late breakthrough with this one. It was two days ago when I was reading a particularly boring article in the New Yorker. I said to myself: “damn, I’m fast at reading this”. But I still remembered the gist: the yakuza are .
Score: 7 / 10
12. …aaand the obligatory last point: go to the gym more often
Aha! Here it is! I should just have read on….
Score: 6 / 10
Average: 4.73. Result: F. Ouch. Harsh.
So that was last year. This year I have learned: no more resolutions…